The words in my head

You broke me.
"You broke me," I hear myself say.
And I mean it.
No, I really don't.
I might have before.
But I don't today.

I hate you.
"I hate you," I whisper the words.
Even as I hear them echo.
I think to myself
That they seem absurd.

I'm over you.
"I'm over him," I tell my friends
We talk about it, laugh about it
They don't need to know
I fell for you again

Look at you.
"Look at him," I say to myself
As I watch you walk by
I stand off to the side
Cause you're with somebody else

I don't care.
"I don't care," I say through my tears
I try to hide behind a smile
But really, without you
I'm facing all of my fears

I miss you.
"I miss him," I hear in my head
I try to ignore the words
And forget that I feel them inside.
I know that they're better left unsaid.

I hate you.
"I hate you", I say, but I don't at all.
I'm only hate myself.
Cause you've moved on, you're alright
I'm still down after my fall.

But here I am, standing
Needing you again
Here I am, begging
For you to let me back in.

I need you.
"I need you," what I whisper is true.
I can pretend that I'm fine
But everything isn't okay
You may not want me, but now I need you.